Bent is Better Than Broken

Saturday, September 23, 2023 - 11:34 AM

Don't feel good. Nightmares this morning, woke with a bit of a migraine. Took Excedrin and Advil, and it's better, but still feel the hangover of both. And the near panic attack of realizing that I can't call in sick, because I can't afford to miss out on the hours. I'm already strapped and in a bad way.

Probably gonna cover for (OR end up working with) Adrianna again tomorrow to pick up some more hours. But even with everything...I'm so fuckin' tired.

Stresssss...

Nauseous. I probably need to keep my personal rule that if I throw up, I go home, but...chaos. I don't know that I'll protect that boundary. Between feeling like the expectation is to work through it or be seen as weak and incompetent, and having days I work alone and have things that need doing, like feeding the horses...

I guess bent is better than broken, and planning now, saying, "If this happens, I will bounce on lessons but feed to the best of my abilities," is better than nothing. But...ugh. I don't feel good.

Dread at going in tomorrow. So tired.