Stuck

October 21, 2022

I want to write, but feel stuck. Not sure what to write, I don't really want to start a new thing--or I do, but I don't have any new ideas aching to be made and I have a lot of guilt over all my half-finished projects. Like, some of what I really want is to be finishing something, so I can release it, publish it, then the next and the next. But I'm all bound up with my current ones. Head First I'm close to cracking, but just don't have much passion to throw at it. New Normal I kinda don't want to touch and I'm not entirely sure why. It Doesn't Matter I kinda do want to delve into, but it also won't really do the whole "publish" thing. It's also...important in ways that make it hard to just hop in. Even though I simultaneously feel I should just jump in and out ("like I used to," echoes in my head).

It hurts.

I have other things that are/were mostly through the pre-production stage. Pony Power, the shifter polycule, a mix of other kink-exploring smut ideas.

None of them are particularly lighting my fire.

Mamoru "Is this the depression?" meme.