Job Thoughts

Friday, February 28, 2025 - 4:17 PM

I think I should probably become a vet. I don't want to. Sounds hard. But for my people, my community, my mates, and myself, seems a good move. Plus, is we apocalypse it'll give me important skills.

I always wanted to work in the arts. I spent every spare second in school drawing and writing. When I went back to college, it was to an animation program.

But the arts industry is not the same as the arts. The arts industry is horrible to get into, and will wring your soul out once you get there. Notably, I did not get in, but my perspective as someone who shoved their face up against the windows is, "Fuck. You live like this?"

Not like any industry isn't hideously exploitative. Capitalism, bay-BEE! Gotta crush 'em for all that they're worth, really extract that value from that labor force and leave 'em with nothing left.

But. Maybe. Maybe...

I hate that this is this way.

But yeah. Back on my bullshit, think I should go back to school AGAIN to try and become a vet. IDK.

I do think I'd be good at it. I did pretty well at being a vet tech, well, vet assistant cuz I don't have the certs as a vet tech. I'm good with the animals, not terribly squeamish about treatment, all that. I love being a riding instructor. But I'm broke, sick, and scared. I don't have show experience, I don't really have the advanced stuff to really take my students to the next level. I'm good, understanding, and kind. I make my lessons feel as fun and safe as I can manage, and I love seeing my students thrive. But everything's temporary, and so is this.

My thoughts on becoming a vet started a few years ago, a previous time I was looking at moving out of the country. Get specialized training and emigrate. Become a better deal for them to have. Increase your value to others. Now we're looking at going, and. Yeah, maybe?

Maybe job just be job? Can still be an artist. Can still be maybe a horse trainer. Just working as a vet? Would I even be able to get through if not riding my passion through the schooling process? My ADHD ass is highly interest-based in learning. Having the intent to be an equine-specialized vet will help, but only so far. Chaos, I couldn't cut the hard science Animal Science classes in college the first time.

I dunno. I dunno. I wanna try, but I don't know.

What I really want is to make stuff and wander everywhere with my mates. Go on adventures and see new things. But you Must exchange Labor for Being Alive. You Are Beholden.

Sucks.