2024/04/16

6:30p

• I want to die
• I don't, but I'm So, So Tired
• And I talked about it when Nicole's lesson asked if I was joining them to ride, and it made me look like a weak loser who can't handle being at the barn from 10:30 in the morning and
• I'm So. Fucking. Tired.
• I want to make IDM. I want to go home. I want to go Home, home. I will never be able to
• I like the life I've carved out here. It's really good. I'm so, so tired, and I'm so tired of still hurting all the damn time
• I should try therapy again.
• I refuse to Try Therapy with a therapist who doesn't admit that Getting to Therapy is a fucking gauntlet