Spinning on Horses

Sunday, November 5, 2023 - 5:46 PM

Blurgh. Spinning so hard on horses and blogging and crafting right now. So let's scratch the blogging itch a little, anyway.

Chaos, I want a horse of my own. Riding the lesson horses, particularly exercising the horses that aren't getting enough use as we get the new location running has been good, buuuut it's not quite scratching the same itch. Partially cuz I don't super feel like I'm learning/growing very much doing so (and I'm always second-guessing myself. Not like that will change much), and partially...not feeling like I'm getting a lot out of doing it? Which I'm p conflicted about. Wheee.

I'm so, so damn thirsty to try Endurance--Competitive Trail Riding really, but chaos. I want the community, the fun, the challenge. Ever since talking w/ A last week about her students' results at the show that weekend I've been burning to compete. I want to grow, and learn, and again, I want community. I want to have fun, I want friends. Heh, I guess I want it to also be a hobby.

Not a smart move to taunt myself with this, but I did check the local listings and came across a for a 13 year old Arabian gelding for lease for $300 per month, which...urgh, I want to do the things! I'm so broke, I can't even, but stilllll...It's tantalizing.

And then watching the crafting drama channel Emma in the Moment's vids is making me want to sell crafts. Chaos. I have crafts I want to make, after all. It'd be super cool to do those.

So then my dumb brain is all, "And then I can fund my horsing with craft sales! It'll be perfect!" Like running up a crafting business AND my jobs AND anything else that goes with having a life wouldn't be incredibly time consuming, and probably each block out each other. But regardless, brain still go brrrr...