Nobody Cares

March 30, 2023

Posting is hard for me. Too many years of being told no one cared what I had to say. Too many years telling myself it needs to be well thought out and polished. Hard work. Rigorous effort. Funny, witty, and all still approachable.

I keep saying, "Oh, I'll get better about posting. I've got things to say, or at least I want to join the fun, too." But I still stress out, freak that nobody really would want to hear from me, or that anything I write has to be a gigantic Effort. Say, "This Time, I Will Write!" and my mind goes blank. My anxiety swells, and I'm redirecting myself to think about something else, diverting my attention to drown out the roaring negative self talk, the storm of fear and pain threatening to swamp me.

I want to post more. I want to write about my experiences, and tell my stories, and share my opinions...and not duck and run any time someone interacts with me.

But no promises.

Nobody Cares... - Sonic