Art and Work Pursuits

Tuesday, December 3, 2024 - 3:02 PM

What dooooo woooooooooorrrrrk? AHHHH, I don't know...!

I'm so tired.

I was so close to pivoting to trying to be a vet and having my art pursuits be It Doesn't Matter and stuff and just for fun. But with the expected upcoming move, those plans are scuttled. At least for the time being.

I still want to make art. And I feel like pursuing it for part time moneys is a good idea.

I hate doing commissions. I shouldn't strike them entirely, but should limit them. Doing timed commissions in hour blocks, 2 hour blocks, etc would be a better approach. Still some logistics to work out, but might be The Approach.

I want to tell stories. I want to write stories and make things. I want to do comics. I'm so tired, and having so much trouble with focus and touching my own spirit.

Exploring my spirit this morning, been clamping down far too hard for far too long, not letting myself feel for fear of pain. For requiring myself to be under control. Control, control, control...

So, so damn tired.

So. What am I gonna do? How'm I gonna set this up? What approach am I gonna take?

I love teaching riding. I'm not gonna stop doing it. And trying to make my job just art right now doesn't feel feasible. And also.

Either way, I'll be joining SIN doing Dealer's Den at Further Confusion in January, and need to prep for that anyway.

...unless we end up in Germany before then...

But anyway.